The Confession of Drama Queen

Some questions which will make you think twice before you give your friends a tag called ‘besties’ :

1. Have you ever thought about what your friends might think about you ?
2. Are you sure they never talked about you behind your back ?
3. Are you sure when you cry because your world falling apart, they’ll comfort you ?
4. Are you sure they’re not rolling their eyes when you talked about your crush or your enemy ?
5. Are you sure they’re worth you call ‘besties’ ?

My answers will be :

1. Always have.
2. No, I’m not so sure.
3. Not so sure, either.
4. I have never caught them rolling their eyes, but I’m sure they’ve been done that.
5. I hope they will be.

Anyway, I have a story to tell and (I think) it has relation with the questions :
Me and my friends plan to hanging out together today. But we both haven’t decided where to go. So we’re chatting about some of the places where we use to hang out while wait for my other friend to come. Then, I saw him. -my crush- was played football with the other boys in the field right in front of us.
Suddenly, she said (I’m not really remember) : Why don’t we go to -my crush- home, hey do you know that Tiwi likes -my crush- ?
so loudly in front of my friends.
And I was like : What the hell ?!
Thank God, my friends didn’t heard what she said because they were too excited about the football game. But, one of my friend (who didn’t really excited about the football) looked surprise and said : really ?
she : Yea. Tiwi likes -my crush-
me : (nervously) no ! I’m over him.
he : -smile stupidly-

I (sort of) hate her . Start from the moment I wrote this posting.
You might ask : why now, not right after she humiliate you?
The answer is : I was going to yelled at her, but then my friend that we’ve been waiting came. I don’t want to put herself as a ‘trouble solver’ between me and this f**kin’ girl.

Then, the three of us goin’ to restaurant. And when I’m busy pickin’ the menu, the two of them were talking private. I looked at them curiosly :
me : what’s wrong, guys ?
girl #1 : no, nothing.
me : then why you guys talkin’ sooo private ?
girl #2 : let’s tell her.
girl #1 : up to you.
me : okay, I’m getting curios.
girl #1 : well, it’s not really important.
girl #2 : we’re graduate already, let’s talked about it to her.
me : *keep waiting*
girl #2 : so.. *she answer the question of mine that I almost forgot : about why some of my friends didn’t want to hang out with me anymore. She said, because they sick of me being such a drama queen*
me : Oh, okay.

At that moment, I try to calm down my self. Not to act drama queen like what my friends has just said. But then, I realized : How long have been they keeping this secret from me ? If they keeping this secret, it means : they’ve talked about me behind my back, right ? So, do they even worth called ‘besties’ ? I don’t think so.

(Maybe) to make me felt comfort, they’re changed the subject into : our future (high) school.

I wanna go to the school where I won’t meet them, my old clique, my old friends, or everyone I knew. I really wanna start this all over again. Look forward and never regret what you've done.

The weird thing is that I couldn’t say what I want to them.
Everytime they say : “I hope the three of us could entering the same high school”
It sounds fake to me. Do they really wanna go to the same school with me, the drama queen ? I bet they’ll answer : of course we do *but deep down inside, they’re true answer is : absolutely no !*

If your friends that you used to called besties, humiliate you and talked behind your back. What will you do ? Will you still call them ‘besties’ ?

I wish I could exchange my (fake) besties with -my crush-
The question is : Does he willing to be my bestfriend ?

Well, even in my last posting I said that we’re bestfriend. The thing is : we’re never really a ‘bestfriend’

We’re kinda avoiding each other. He don’t wanna hurt my feeling and I don’t wanna get hurt by him, either. Since yearbook project is done, I have no reason to text him. Probably, it’s the best for both of us : He live his life. I live mine.

Hhhhh..It feels relieve after I finish this posting. Since I have no one to talk to.

FYI, I am a drama queen. Do you have a problem with that ?

XOXO.tiwi.

Road to Senior High School

Setelah kmaren tanggal 20 juni aku dinyatakan lulus dengan NEM (Nilai Ebtanas Murni) yang menempatkan aku di urutan 35/214 satu sekolah, dan membuat aku ranking 5/36 di kelas, aku jadi sibuk milih sekolah dan ga sempet mosting -ceilah, kayak NEMnya tinggi aja ! hha-

Belum lagi aku sibuk perang opini sama my dad yang ngotot mau masukin aku di salah satu SMA Negeri level B. Halooo, kalo NEMku bisa masuk di SMA level A, knapa ga, yaa kan ?

Tapi gitu deh, my dad think that I’m vulnerable and weakling. My dad slaluuu aja punya alasan knapa aku ga boleh masuk SMA level A :

”Apa kamu bisa beradaptasi di sana ?”

”SMA sana tuh jauh, ntar energi kamu abis di jalan.”

.”Di sana anaknya pinter-pinter, kalo kamu ketinggalan, gimana ?”

Dan blablablabla lainnya.

Aku jadi sempet mikir negatif : Kok kayaknya daddy ga percaya sama potensi aku yaa ? Mommy aja percaya kok sama potensi aku, buktinya waktu aku bilang aku mau masuk di salah satu SMA level A, mommy iya-iya aja tuh. Emang sih, sebagai anak paling kecil di rumah, aku emang dapet perhatian ‘lebih’ yang bikin aku jadi kayak sekarang : ‘spoiled brat’ . Mommy minta aku blajar naik motor biar bisa mandiri. But, my dad said,”Kamu pake supir aja yaa. Kalo naik motor bahaya, ntar kalo jatuh, gimana?”
Hhhhh..Don’t know when will my dad stop treating me as daddy little girl.

Anyway, let’s change our topic !

Hari ini aku capeeekkk banget ! Keliling Dinas Pendidikan mulai dari tingkat Kota sampai Provinsi buat nambah nilai. Yup, aku kan murid berprestasi di bidang News Reading -sombong mode : on-
Tapi belum tau juga bakal nambah berapa nilaiku. Moga-moga aja dapet tambahan 0,6 biar NEMku bisa pas 9 rata-ratanya. Hhe.

Btw, nambah nilai tuh ternyata cukup ribet caranya :

1. Tadi aku harus cari guru yang ngurusin bidang nambah-nambah nilai buat minta formulir penambahan nilai.

2. Fotokopi piagam sama formulir, masing-masing 3 kali -pertamanya yang aku fotokopi 3 kali tuh cuma piagamnya doang, eh ternyata formulirnya juga perlu di legalisir. Akhirnya tadi harus lari-lari ke foto kopi depan dinas pendidikan kota-

2. Pergi ke Dinas Pendidikan tingkat provinsi. Oia, aku ke sana naik TAKSI lhoh ! Huwaaa, mommyku yang biasanya nganterin aku buat ngurus-ngurus hal beginian lagi di Cina with my dad -tadi aku nyulik salah satu juniorku buat nemenin aku legalisir : Anjaaa, thanks yaa udah mau nemenin aku seharian ini !-

3. Ngasih fotokopian piagam aja tanpa fotokopian formulir

4. Antri, nunggu di panggil buat tanda tangan

5. Ambil fotokopian piagam (1 di tinggal di sana, 2 dibalikin ke aku) trus tanda tangan

6. Pergi ke Dinas Pendidikan tingkat kota -naik taksi lagi-

7. Fotopkopi piagam lagi (mereka minta 3)

8. Ngasih fotokopian piagam sama 1 fotokopian formulir

9. Tanda tangan lagi, di kasih kertas buat ngambil berkas yang di tinggal besok -PS : aku belum tau bakal dapet tambahan nilai berapa-

10. Pulang ke sekolah numpang mobilnya temenku and nunggu di jemput nanny

Oia, tadi waktu nemenin si Anja -juniorku- ke kamar mandi, aku baru sadar kalo bentar lagi aku bakal meninggalkan SMPku : tempat aku belajar Fisika untuk pertama kalinya, gabung sama gang for the first time, remidi matematika tiap tahunnya. Hhe, ketemu sama guru-guru yang unique tapi galak juga, PDKT sama ‘my crush’ yang berakhir konyol karena sekarang kita malah jadi sahabatan, pokoknya banyak unforgettable moments di SMPku.

SMA sih, katanya masa yang paling ngangenin. Aku pernah tanya sama my sister : what is it feels like being a High School Student ?
And she said : Trust me, when you're already graduate from high school there will be feeling that makes you always wanna rewind you’re High School life. It’s FUN.

I’m going to prove it by myself.

XOXO.tiwi.

Envying HER

Will you share your spotlight ?

I won’t (again). Yup, I’ve made stupid mistake before by sharing my spotlight with my friend . And I won’t do it anymore. Well, actually we’re (me and HER) in a good terms now. But I think, our friendship are fake. I mean, I (still) envy her sometimes.

My stupid mistake begin when I was in 7th grade. I was one of the famous cliques in my grade. That time, there are 2 famous cliques (Let’s call them group A and group B *I know, it sounds silly :p). I was one of the group A. We’re as famous as group B. Let’s skip the part about this famous cliques, shall we?

And this is my favorite part : I’m turning the ugly duck into the beautiful swan. Please don’t call me Fairy Godmother. I have this nerdy girl in my school , I don’t know why I’m starting a stupid conversation with her by saying : Hi, how are you?blablablabla…
And I was surprised that she’s actually not that nerd for God sake! She’s nice and funny -at first-

So, I started to hang out with her (I’m sure you guys know what kind of activities girls always do together at school, rite?) and my girls LIKE her ! And the next day I’ve realized that she’s already taken my place. Because everybody LOVE to talk to her or talk ABOUT her :

“You know, my crush is actually –the nerdy girl- senior’s back in elementary school ! “
“-the nerdy girl- is funny !”
“-the nerdy girl- will you accompany me to go to the toilet ?”
”-the nerdy girl- said that we should try to hang out at the...”

So, I decided to stay away from my clique for a while, and -the nerdy girl- while I was away took my spotlight, she became popular than ever. AND I HATE HER SO MUCH FOR THAT, IT CONSUMES ME !

But one day, I have this trouble with one of the girl in group B. And my clique (including her) helped me. And that day when I’m facing trouble with one of the girl in group B, the war has just turns out into : Group A VS Group B

But another war was also began inside my clique : me VS -one of my girls-

It’s stupid problem (I don’t have to write it here, it’s too hurt to remember). I’m having so much troubles in school that I’m begging my mom to moved me into other school and as you guess, my mom just laughed while starring at me and said : “Do not runaway from trouble. You have to face it and solved them, Tiwi.”

So, my school’s life which at first is as beautiful as fairytale now becoming a poorytale. Group A always talked behind my back about me (that’s what I heard from everyone) and my clique ? Oh, I found out that they’re really my friend ! They support me and giving me the best advice to avoid them. Yeah, they don’t solve my problem, they just told me to avoid them because (maybe) they’re just don’t want ended like me too : facing trouble at school -place where you’ve spent your time quite a lot : 5 until 8 hours-
the question is : will you suffer for 5-8 hours ? I’m sure you’re going to answer : absolutely NO.

And then miracle happen before the holy moon for moslem people comes : we’re apologized each other. And Group A and Group B becoming one group. Yup, we’re becoming the BIGGEST clique in our school since 9th grade. My school’s life back normal, but not for -the nerdy girl-

She’s facing a big deal with -one of my girls- . Yup, -the nerdy girl- becoming backstabber : she took my friend crush! Ow..I LOVE IT! Haa, you’re totally OUT! And yeah, she’s OUT! Now, she’s tried hanging out with the girls in my class but poor her, everyone in my class already know her new reputation as backstabber : EVERYONE HATES HER. She has NO friends. Ow, what goes around, comes around, rite?

I’m back with my (new) clique and it feels weird. They’re different now. So, I decided to out of the clique (again) and reunite with -the nerdy girl-. I don’t HATE her anymore. But I envy her since now because everyone always starred curiosly and asked : “You’re alone ? Where’s -the nerdy girl- ?” Arrrggghhh! Hello, can you just stop ask about her and look at me? I’m BETTER than HER !

We’re kind of bestie right now, but I’m not sure because she also sharing her life stories with other girl. And with my self center character : I want her to be my ONLY bestie! But I have no right to ask her change into what I want her to be. So, I’m still in my therapy to decrease the self center character inside my self. Wish me luck, guys !

Oh, and the big clique? (I think) We’re still friends until now (even the fact that we don’t talk each other frequently like what it used to be)

Being teenage is not always FUN, is it ?

XOXO.Tiwi.

Sport Lesson, New friend, The Missing Photos and Queen Bee

The 7th posting ! Whoa, lucky number 7 nih :D

Halooo all :)

Hari ini aku bangun jam 7.15 a.m. trus mandi, abis mandi mengubek-ubek lemari mencari rok biru buat hari kamis ini, eh aku lupa kemaren aku masukin ke mesin cuci semua, jadi harus pake rok biru yang tidak sengaja di temukan, dan sumpah rok sialan itu : SEMPIT BANGET! Phobia gendutku muncul. Isu berat badan ini mengakibatkan aku harus menyortir baju-baju mana yang udah sempit alias ga bisa dipake lagi karena badanku menggendut (mommy mencoba menghibur dengan bilang : “kamu kan lagi masa pertumbuhan” ). Nah, abis disortir, baju-baju ini bakal di sumbangin ke orang-orang tidak mampu (wew, bahasaku!). After that, I’m ready to go to school (miss Nisrina and Yessi, yeah..Kita janjian ketemu di sekolah. Ga elit banget yaa? Hhhhh) .

Bertemu dengan cliqueku yang baru di sekolah : Darya, Nisrina, dan Yessi :)

Ngobrol-ngobrol ga jelas bareng mereka, abis itu kita ber3 menghampiri temen-temen cowok buat ngobrol-ngobrol ga jelas (lagi!) Eh, lagi seru-serunya ngobrol, aku melihat sosok yang menakutkan berbaju olahraga dan membawa stopwatch (Okay, orang yang aku maksut adalah : Pak Pri guru olahragaku tercinta yang rajiiinnn banget nagih : Pratiwi, nilai basket kamu belum ada!). Hari itu aku lagi pake rok sialan nan SEMPIT BANGET, mana mungkin dengan outfit seperti itu aku bakal dribble bola basket ga jelas di tengah kerumunan anak-anak grade 8 yang juga lagi olahraga, kan? Alhasil, saya sebagai murid yang (kurang ) baik bersembunyi di balik 3 badan-badan jumbo clique saya : yessi, darya, dan nisrina. Pas lagi ngumpet, datanglah sang destroyer sejati : Sukuma (okay, namanya kusuma, tapi aku lebih suka manggil dia gitu. hhe) yang langsung berteriak-teriak ke arah Pak Pri,” Pak, tiwi belum ambil nilai basket, lhoh! OMG, I swear : Sukuma going to pay for his (stupid) mistake someday!!! Dan akhirnya seperti sudah diduga, datanglah si guru olahraga tercintaku ini dengan berseru lantang : “Kamu jangan pulang dulu yaa, slesei ngambil nilai klas 8, saya akan ambil nilai kamu!” Well, aku cuman bisa ngangguk sambil ngelirik sinis ke Sukuma yang malah ketawa-ketawa sama pacarnya si Putri (dear Putri, knapa kau tak membelaku dan malah tertawa bersama pacar sialanmu itu? T_T)

Waktu lagi sebel-sebelnya nunggu grade 8 slesei olahraga, yessi mencetuskan ide untuk pergi aja dari sekolah buat makan atau nonton. Aku yang juga pengen banget pergi dari sekolah bersama mereka ber4 (ada 1 temen cowoknya darya yang berasal dari Purwokerto bernama Dito lagi liburan di Jogja dateng ke sekolah nyamperin Darya di sekolah *jangan bayangin dia dateng sebagai prince charming yang naik kuda putih lhoh yaa! hha) pun mencoba bernegosiasi dengan si Pak Pri :

aku : Pak, kalo ngambil nilainya besok aja gimana?
Pak Pri : Ya udah, gini aja : besok kamu bawa tanaman sama baju-baju bekas.
aku : *bingung sambil membatin dalam hati : kok tugasnya ga ada hubungannya sama olahraga?*
Pak Pri : gimana?
aku : *membatin : daripada dribble bola basket ga jelas, ga papa deh*
Pak Pri : Pratiwi dapat nilai 75 : tuntas. Besok yaa!
aku : Okay, pak! Makasih banyak yaa, pak! *senyum happy*

Akhirnya, kami pun pergi ke rumah Darya (nganterin si Dito yang mau silaturrahmi ke neneknya Darya. Eleuh-eleuh si nenek pun di embat juga! Hha *buat dito : I’m just kiddin’. Take it easy. peace ^_^V) naik mobilnya Darya di anter supirnya tercinta : Om Titot (saya, nisrina, dan yessi emang remaja ga modal : udah mempermalukan diri di depan Dito, temannya Darya dengan jokesnya yessi yang oh-my-God, maen ke rumah Darya, eh jalan-jalan juga pake supirnya Darya. To Darya : thank you so much udah mau di repotin oleh kami, terutama yessi. Lhoh?! hha)

Di rumah Darya, kita ngobrol-ngobrol ga jelas untuk ke3 kalinya sambil nganterin Dito silaturrahmi ke neneknya Darya. Abis itu, kita naik mobilnya Darya menuju Ambarukmo Plaza. Penumpang tambah 1 lagi : mommynya Darya. Dalem mobilnya Darya, kita ngobrolin soal anak-anak di kelas kita. Dan lewat obrolan-obrolan tentang anak-anak di kelas, kita ber4 (without Dito) menyadari bahwa : FOTO-FOTO KITA BER4 YANG DI PHOTOBOX (DULU) RAIB! *music dramatis : jengjengjengjeng, kalo di sinetron : kameranya bakal maju-mundur untuk menimbulkan efek ‘WOW’*

Kita pun mulai beramsumsi : jangan-jangan di bawa trouble maker junior (baca posting ke3 ku), jangan-jangan di bawa trouble maker senior, jangan-jangan di Flash disknya nisrina, jangan-jangan di bawa Dito atau neneknya Darya (Lhoh?! hha)

Penasaran di bawa siapa, kita tanya ke trouble maker junior, nah, anak 1 ini emang udah ga punya manner dari lair kali yee? d tanya baik-baik malah misuh (mengumpat dalam basa jawa) ! Tanya trouble maker senior : telpon ga di angkat. Yoweslah, kita pun (mencoba) mengikhlaskan foto-foto tersebut .

Nah, pas di Amplaz, kita misah : aku-nisrina-yessi nonton ‘Queen Bee’ di 21. Darya-Dito ga tau deh mau ke mana abis makan di Taman Sari.

Okay, here’s my ‘Queen Bee’ movie review (as you know before : aku ga bisa nulis movie review, but this time I’ll try deh. Maap yaa, kalo bahasanya amburadul. hhe)

Queen Bee :

Fashionable movie (baju-bajunya bagus). Oka Antara looks quite handsome, bener-bener : man in uniform *bener gitu ga, sih?*

Ada A-lister celebrity di film ini : Jajang C.Noer, Mathias Muchus, dan Sarah Sechan.

Well, karna saya baik hati, tidak sombong serta rajin menabung, saya tidak akan (terlalu) menghujat film ini kok, for me this movie : quite worth watchinglah because this movie boring in the beginning. Interesting in the Middle. Nice Ending.

Tapi, in my opinion film ini tepat banget di release sekarang karna bertepatan dengan waktu menjelang pemilu presiden. Yup, Mathias Muchus di film ini berperan sebagai Rahmad Siregar yang mencalonkan diri sebagai calon presiden gitu, deh.

1 hal yang aku pelajarin dari film ini : kita sebagai generasi muda harus ikutan peduli sama nasib bangsa. Kata-katanya Queen Bee ‘ngena’ banget : “generasi muda sekarang generasi manja dan bisanya cuma ngeluh”. *Setuju banget tuh, makanya mulai dari sekarang aku mau (coba) blajar mandiri deh* Wish me Luck yaa :D

Hhe. Trnyata saya emang ga berbakat nulis movie review nih, belum apa-apa udah males. Coba buka official websitenya ‘Queen Bee’ aja yaa di : http://www.queenbeethemovie.com/

Selesei nonton, yessi and nisrina nemenin aku hunting CD games di depan kasirnya Carrefour. Udah dapet gamesnya (buat cewek-cewek yang hobi ngegame, try : “Leeloo’s Talent Agency” ; “Nanny Mania” ; “Amelie’s Café” and “Cooking Academy”) malah ternyata ga punya duit, akhirnya turun ke bawah ambil duit buat beli CD games di ATM. Nah, di situ lah aku ketemu mommy yang menjemput putrinya nan lucu ini (baca : AKU) . Akhirnya, yessi-nisrina pulang . Aku gabung sama mommy beli CD games. Abis itu, mampir beli kerudung buat mommy, dari situ go to Body Shop beli body lotion, body mist, and eau de toilette (sama kayak parfume, tapi lebih tahan lama parfume kayaknya. hhe). Trus, pulang deh.

That’s all : another normal day. Nothing special *sigh*

See you in my next posting. XOXO.Tiwi

(almost) graduate :)

Heyy all :D

Duh, udah brapa hari nih, aku ga mosting d Blog? maap yaa, I’m so busy takin’ care of my school’s yearbook project.

Yearbook semakin deket deadline nih. Banyak banget bahan-bahan yang harus di cari : Sambutan Kepala Sekolah, Ucapan Trima Kasih dari para panitia (including me :D), janjian sama para guru buat foto bareng, cari lagu mars sekolah (well, walopun udah 3 taun sekolah di SMPku, saya tetap tidak hapal dengan marsnya :p), plus komentar dari junior-junior kita yang terkadang gayanya sinetron banget kalo d inget-inget, dulu aku gitu ga, yaa? hhe)

Anyway, di sekolah kok makin ga jelas yaa, kegiatannya? Hari ini aja aku pulang jam 10.50, padahal tadi brangkat jam 8.45! Saya emang ga niat sekolah! Hha. Akhirnya sambil nunggu pengumuman hari-hariku di isi dengan mengelilingi mal-mal : Ambarukmo Plaza, Saphire Square, Malioboro, and Galeria. Emang sih, katanya kita (semua murid grade 9) harus prihatin alias tidak boleh bersenang-senang dulu. Tapi mau ke mana lagi kalo bukan mengelilingi kotaku tercinta : Jogja Never Ending Asia :)

Waa, ga kerasa bentar lagi I’m going to be a senior high school student. Kalo kata my sista nih, SMA itu adalah masa-masa paling indah (bahasanya euy!). Hmm..I need to prove it, rite? hhe.
Okay, I think that’s all the info I can give you about my recent activity for today. Thanks for read it.

XOXO.Tiwi.