A : a loser with no friends or B : a popular person with many friends who secretly hates you

Which one do you choose ? If there’s C : a lovable person who has many friends. I’ll choose that one. And I bet you’ll choose the same, won’t you ?

Anyway, another trouble comes. According to my (hopefully trusted) friend, it’s not a trouble. I’m the one who makes it looks like a trouble. What can I say ? I am the drama queen after all..

But then when they’re start to leave you behind : going to canteen together (without asking you), talking about the hot seniors in front of you (but then, in the middle of the story you’re start to wonder : who the hell they’re talking about ?!),
talking about a girl who date with one of your bestie’s crush. And your other bestie trying to entertain by saying: Hey ! How come they’re dating ?! She’s not even prettier than you !
The four of the girls love to talking and laughing without you (again ! For God sake!),
and when they’re talked, one of the girl said,”Guys, I put you guys on my featured friends in facebook : girl1,2,3,boy1, and boy2.
And when one of them ask : “You’re not featuring Tiwi ?”
She reply : “let’s change the subject!”
me : like I care if I’m not in your featured friends, beatch ! -actually, I do. CARE-
You’re start to realize : You’re not one of them. You’re just an outsider who trying to entering their perfect ‘inner circle’.

I feel like I don’t belong there. Not in that school. Not in that class. And not in that ‘inner circle’.
By the way, -flirty- (the girl in my last post) is really annoying ! I was talking with one of my (hopefully trusted) friend about ‘me being the outsider’ (thank God she felt the same). And when I was about to start talking, -flirty- put her butt in my seat. And I was giving her this what-the-hell-are-you-doing-in-my-chair-beatch look. And once a dumb blonde (she will always be), she didn’t understand what I’m trying to say to her. Gosh !
So, me and my friend trying to escape from -flirty- by saying : “accompany me to the restroom, please !” and we did it ! She didn’t followed us anymore.

After the plan called 'escaping from -flirty- worked. I talked to my friend about how I feel. And she said to me : “Ignore them. We’re here one big family. It isn’t good to make your own group in this class, is it ?”

Well, that’s her advice. I couldn’t agree more.

Mxit, bing, mig33, YM, MySpace, Friendster, Facebook, etc. (Can you imagine how complicated is it that every morning, I have to checked those social network just to update the latest gossip so I could start a conversation?)

Aaahh, that time has gone. Now all I have just Facebook and YM. And that still confusing sometimes. *sigh*

It happens all the time : in elementary school, in Junior High School, and now in my first year of Senior High School. I always facing the same problem : Friends.

It so hard finding a friend who really understand you and accept you for who you are, isn’ it ?

XOXO.Tiwi